I'm pretty sure I've completely fallen off the map here

But I'm still around... haven't been knitting as much. Life has been crazy in the last year and a half I've gotten divorced, dealt with mom's health getting worse and all in all adjusting to life. I've been knitting (the mitered square blanket is long since done and was given to a friend of mine who started Chemo.... no worries, she's doing good) and working and learning to enjoy life again. It's been a long slow process... but I'm getting there. I haven't been taking any pictures of my projects, but I need to (isn't it just the same old apology over and over again?) I'll get back into the swing of things though, you'll see :)

Finally!!!!

I just got my new charger for my laptop so I'm now back in business. I've got a few pictures to upload (and take for that matter) and a bunch of things to get caught up on. I've been away for what seems like years, but I'm back now and can't wait to get back to posting my accomplishments and keeping up with podcasts again (I haven't heard one since the wonderful dog of mine ate my cord). I'm off to let my laptop charge and get a bag finished and take pictures of my mom's finished shawl and my progress on the mitered square blanket I started with yarn that was passed on to me from my husbands step mom after Christmas. Exciting stuff!!

Same Old Same old

I still have to fight my husband to use his computer, and now that he's lost his job... well, lets just say my shots at the computer are getting to be less and less. I need to order a power chord for my laptop still, unfortunately food comes first. I swear sometimes when it rains it pours. It's starting to feel like I just can't quite catch a break. Just when I think things are under control I get another bombshell dropped into my lap.

Needless to say because I have no computer I can't upload any pictures. Christmas went off without a hitch, and I've started work on a blanket and I'm working on a shawl collared sweater. I haven't been on to ravelry in what feels like forever and I feel as though I've lost touch with all my knitting friends, and haven't listened to a podcast since November... I'm so alone! I'll make it through though. Let me tell you, there's nothing worse than a yarn diet you're forced to take. No extra money=no yarn. Its been a sad month here in my home, no new yarns...

The husband will be home from the auto parts store soon (oh forgot to mention that one of our car batteries is dead and we need a new one)and I'll lose the computer again for a week or two. For anyone who is still reading, I'm sorry for the quiet I really will try and update more as soon as I can... things are just a little rough right now.

I'm not dead, I swear!!

I've been gone a long time. Trying to pry the husband off his computer has been super hard, so I have to wait until he's in bed. Life has been crazy. I lost my grandmother on the 15th of November. We got into it again with the same paramedic that took my aunt but this time he didn't want to take my grandma. Long story short, grandma had 2 strokes within a day of going to the hospital and passed away shortly there after. She outlived all the doctors expectations, although it was definitely a scary sight to see my grandmother dead but still breathing (she was in a coma for the last few days of her life). Family drama ensued not too long after that, but I think it's finally calmed down. My aunt (who passed away in October) and my grandma are both being buried alongside my grandfather and uncle.

My husband and I moved into my mom's house over Thanksgiving weekend. I didn't have a real Thanksgiving this year, our feast was Jack in the Box while we packed boxes and prepared to move on Saturday. What an adventure. I was sooo tired afterwards. I've been busy adjusting to my new graveyard schedule and to the new home-life. The hubby and I have been having some pretty big problems lately but they're getting a little easier. I think it's just a matter of an adjustment period.

My knitting hasn't stopped though. I've finished a squirrel, 2 snakes and mice, 2 pairs of socks, 5 bath sets and I've still got a pair and a half of socks and a bag to make for Christmas. I'll make it though, these 8 hours a night of knitting have been a god send. I haven't had to rush through things at home in the few hours I have to knit. I'll try and update more regularly and post pictures both here and on the holiday KAL-CAL.

I'm off to work for now. Take care everyone!

You take the good, you take the bad, you take them both and there you have the facts of life

I know I've been disappeared for a while here now, and my deepest apologies. I have good reason for it all. My last post was 1 day before my aunt passed away.

That's right, she didn't make it. I'm glad she went. It was her time. If she hadn't gone life would have been incredibly hard and miserable no matter how comfy we would have tried to make it for her. I wish I could say that she was put to rest already but she hasn't been. We've been having issues between the motuary, the cemetary and the doctors... and it's still not settled. I can only hope that things get settled soon. I have to say that it freaks me out to no end to know that she's not embalmed and still waiting to get in the ground. *shivers* Just creepy to me.

I also wish I could say that was all the bad news I've been handling. On the 1st we had to call an ambulance for my grandmother. There was something that was just off about her. Well, besides her being more senile than most days and our concerns about her bowel movements/urination. So we got into another fight with the same ambulance driver that took my aunt. Only this time he DIDN'T want to take my grandmother. It's a good thing he took her. Late the following Friday night/early Saturday morning, she had 2 massive strokes affecting 2 parts of her brain. She's a vegetable. We don't believe in keeping someone alive that has no hope of being able to function or enjoy life. I was raised in a family that thought it was more cruel to keep someone hooked on machines for the family's benefit than to let that person go. So she has no life support or feeding tubes. She was moved into a convalescent facility on Friday and I saw her for the first time since her strokes. I tell you it was like standing next to a dead body. She was still warm to the touch but there was no life left in her. I think I'm still scarred from it. I've never seen anything like it before. I've seen a dead body, a couple actually, but they didn't freak me out as much as this did. I'm hoping, for her sake, that she goes soon. Her body just won't give out yet.

And the least of my worries is my dog. He decided to chew throught the power cord to my laptop. So I have no computer, I have my husbands...which I can only use when he's asleep or at work, because the rest of the time he's on it. So if nothing is posted for a while it means I wasn't able to pry the husband away from his computer for very long.

But my news isn't all bad. I started on my graveyards. The adjustment is going a little harder than it did the first time I worked them, but I didn't have as much stress and I wasn't in the middle of a move either. I love the shift, the job and the people. Tuesday night I work all alone, at least for 4 hours, but I'll be alright. No biggie. I used to work much longer by myself. The people I work with, when there are other people there, are fantastic. I've missed them this last year and a half. I'm also still trying to figure out when I'm going to sleep. When I first get off or in the evening. I'm sure I'll figure it out as soon as I get a bit more into the swing of things. Well... that's it for my updating right now... I'm off to pack up dishes, and other kitchen stuff and fold some laundry.

Time for a little dose of panic

It's nearly halloween, and I've managed to get through 1 sock towards Christmas... 1 sock, not one pair one single solitary super easy sock. I hate them. I love making socks, as long as I'm just making them to make them, especially if they're for me :) but when I know I'm on a time limit and I have certain things that I have to make and make on a schedule I turn into super procrastinator. I just don't want to do it. I want to knit everything else under the sun and then some. Anything but what I'm supposed to. And now with the need to move very quickly, I've completely lost my knitting mojo.

I've got one room done and ready to move people at my mom's house. My grandma is moving into a smaller room, and my hubby and I are moving into her bedroom. I have the small room prepared and tomorrow she'll be changing rooms. During this week and especially next weekend we'll be moving our things in, which means for a week or so pretty much the only knitting I'll be doing will be at work, which isn't very much. I'm beginning to panic thinking that I'm never going to get my Christmas stuff done. I know it sounds crazy, I have practically 2 months to get things done... but just the same I have no idea where I'm going to get the time to do it.

A not so gloomy update

The weather here has been super gloomy the last few days, funny how sometimes the weather and my moods are reflective of each other. Anyway, for everyone who has been concerned about my family's troubles, things have calmed down. We're still waiting on THE call about my aunt. The attempted to move her to a convalescent hospital last night but she started going sour during transport so they brought her back to the hospital. One of her several doctors believes it won't be long until she's no longer with us. Don't despair though, if she were to get better, she'd be on dialysis (which is tough enough on it's own but could you imagine having to explain what it is and why it has to be done to someone with the mental capacity of a 2 year old?) not to mention the blindness and limited mobility she has, and who knows what other damage has been done to her brain from the extremely high fevers she's been running. She's pretty much in a coma now, so death would actually be a good thing at this point... as morbid as it may sound. My mom is currently working on getting my grandma into a home and when that happens I'll begin moving in there with my husband following suit within that week. I had been looking at going back to a graveyard shift and taking a demotion. I told my boss today about everything that was going on and he understood and department heads have been looking at a way to keep me at my current position without me having to leave. Yeay me for all my hard work!! Unfortunately I'd be the only person in a 4 story building all night with only 1-2 security officers and that kind of scares me so I'm thinking I might just take the demotion anyway, I'd rather be safe and make less money than make more money and spend my nights alone in an office and scared. Makes sense right? Yup I thought so. I was, and still am, touched by everyone's support and kindness. Thank you :)

In Vegas I managed to get to 2 yarn stores. Both were run by super friendly people, so friendly in fact that I over spent myself... again. Yes I will admit to having a problem, and that's the first step right? I bought several skeins of super soft, beautiful lace weight yarns, a little bit of sock yarn and some thick/thin yarn to make Urchin out of. Has anyone else fallen in love with that hat? I'm not a hat person but I have to have it! It looks so great! And I picked up knitting nature. The book is fantastic, I can't wait to get started on it, but first I have X-mas knitting to do and yarn clubs to catch up on...